Lilly's World

I don't know if he is serious. He is just one of those guys that you can't take seriously, but he seemed so serious and he sent me messages on Facebook (I know it does not mean anything). But that hug, Oh my gosh, i can still picture myself getting in the air. I'm in love. All of this during a party. Wake up Lilly, he was just having fun.. But he told me he secretely loves me. Once again you're going to tell me it does not mean anything. I'm in love. Now he is gone for a week with no phone. I will have to wait a week for my answer. What am I suppose to do..?! I can't focus on work, can't sleep, can't eat & think about him all day. I'm screwed, I know. Now you're thinking that I'm going crazy and imagine stuffs. It was all so real. You know what? My situation is the same as Dido in the song Here with me. "And I won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe. Until you're resting here with me". Story of my life. But once again, I'm not sure i want to date him. I don't want it to be official. I want it to be official between us two. Not everyone. "oh my gosh lilly is with ...!" Nope I don't want this. I'm just in love and waiting to face someone to find what love is again.
7days to go..



*I chosed this picture because I really enjoyed this movie. And I actually did sneak out with him during the party as Romeo sneaked out to her balcony*

I just found out that one of my good friend starting spreading rumors about me. You have no idea how pissed I was, I mean, it was true 5.MONTHS.AGO. And everyone today knows about this. How embarassing? Oh gosh you have no clue. Why do people act the way they do? Do they even know what they're doing? Do they care about people's feelings? I know you're thinking, everyone is going to forget about this in the next few days, no one really cares.. But I just realized how gossipping could be hurt people's feelings. It is pretty much High School all over again! Yay.

^ I thought this was interesting..

"Welcome to our society. You will be judged on what you wear, which music you listen to, what you look like, how you act, who you hang around with, and on practically ever other personal trait and imperfection about you, and you'll be made fun for being who you are. Enjoy your stay."



I found this on facebook, how original. When I read this I thought it was so true about today's society. We judge for what we see, we sometimes don't take the time to talk to people before judging them. I remember during my high school years there was a gifted girl in my p-e class. At first, I remember thinking "Wow, she looks kinda weird" but then I got to know her and we became good friends, she was also smarter than most of the students and teachers of our school. So people judge without even taking a good hard look at themselves. And you'll realize that this society is responsible of many suicide, mostly during teens years. But, I mean, we can't please to everybody so just live the way you want, do the things you want and don't give a crap about what people think :)

Have you ever thought about just getting in a cab, and yell at the diver "Follow that car" wherever in New York City,London, Paris or else where.. And feel that adrenaline like your life is going to change within the next 5, 10 or 20mn in this pursuit..

Okay, well I finally did it, I finally got my blog, my own, mine, it has been a while since the day I thought about having a blog. The idea of writing everything or nothing and having complete strangers who will read this and won't judge me for who I am (I know some of you will still judge.. but anyways) is going to release that part of my deep inside that I cannot show to my circle. I don't really know if I want people to read this or not, but at least it will let me say whatever I want. I think I need this blog, I need to show who I really am, my friends say that I'm always here to listen to people and that I give good advice.. But them, they do not care about listening to my life, they think that I'm so good at listening to them, so I don't need to have anyone to listen to my little stories and dramas.
Don't worry my blog won't be depressing, it will be full of interesting things..!

Enjoy :)